But despite the struggles, 2019 opened the doors to a lot of firsts – including waiting tables, working in a kitchen, washing dishes, crew in a documentary and short films – where I got my first acting job – among many others.

Sometimes I just could not find the right words to say. Searching for the right words to express abstract feelings, substituting symbols for meanings and vice versa, can be a struggle. But it doesn’t mean it is less true, it’s just some feelings are harder to transpose than others.

At times I cut myself open in search for something to say. But in the end, I didn’t need to say anything at all.

The heart communicates in abstract languages. Sometimes it’s best to tell a story when you just let the heart speak and trust what it has to say, even if it doesn’t have any words at all.

If anything I take out of 2018 is that I don’t need a lot to be happy. And it seems that the more I give, the more I get. The less I own, the more I do. I have never been more optimistic and less scared to try.
It also goes without saying that I am only badass because I have the best homies who always got my back – accepting me and my eccentricities.